I told you to come here, if you didn't want me to be anonymous, so here I am.

I hope you enjoyed the book. (;


feel free to shoot me a message at booknotes34@yahoo.com and we can talk if you're down for making me not so anonymous.
(:

hi everyone that visits my livejournal!
before i tell you the bad news, im going to thank you for coming here as often or as little as you do. you're getting to know me or youre reading my thoughts out of boredome..whatever your reason, thank you.

now incase you didn't know, recently my parents read my livejournal, so i've decided to make all my new entries friend's only, simply to protect my privacy. i really do love writing here, and im pretty bummed about having to hide everything from now on so i really strongly encourage you to make a lj so we can keep in touch, you can still read my godawful writing, and you can start writing your own. because nothing makes a day better for me then sitting down and reading people's blogs..i know i have no life, but i really love getting inside peoples heads.

so if you've been anonymously following my posts, please make an account and keep doing it. ill add you to my friends, and all i want is some sort of verification youre not my parents, so i might ask if i know you in real life, or ask a question only someone who knows me would know, but i really hope this doesnt break down the connections i have with all of you!

so my old enteries, according to my father, weren't read by him, just 1/2 of the "welllllllll" entry. so i haven't decided whether ill be making my old enteries friends only as well.. its a pain in the butt but i guess its a good idea just in case..
i also might be creating a *NEW* site that would be public, only id be more stealth about keeping that away from my homelife. (i.e. 28784584376 trillion letter passwords!) we'll see as time goes on and ill keep posting publicly encouraging you to make an account and start posting yourself!
so thank you, to the +25 people who read me regularly. you rock (:

GO MAKE A FREE ACCOUNT!

hi im so fucking attracted to this girl.

i've decided to write in this whenever i need to.
i don't feel like explaining anything about me.
so you can just come and read whatever thoughts i can formulate into text.
you can put my past together and maybe sometime i'll explain a little of it for senses sake.
this is sort of more a self motivated thing, to keep me positive, and let me write down what i want.
right now im going to tell you what i've learned today.


SO:
several things i've come to realize this day:
-my infinite love for rachel. (her compassion, support and love blows me away)
-things just sort of happen and we sort of just have to deal with them.
-the guy that works at barnes & nobles is a dick.
-i have good people around me.


i'm so excited for common threads.
but im really scared that because you do so much emotional work there, im going to have a major breakdown.
but im lucky, i have good people to console me if i do and calm me down.

furthermore, i feel alive because i've felt emotion today.
theres this bit of excitement in the pit of my stomach because of it.
further further more i have no reason to hate my mother.
ive always hated her, and i found out my entire perception of her was wrong as hell. so because ive been disgusted by her my whole life, i don't know how to feel right now. It's so different not to hate her.

funny moment of the day:
I'm standing in line while rachel and i order some fruity coffee drink that costs too much money. caia and lina are behind me.
the guy working there is young and annoying, and clearly embarrassed to have to check out such hot ladies ;D he's kind of ugly. our drink costs $3.78 so i whip out my change and give him seven dimes, one nickle and 3 pennies. it takes me less than a minute to gather the change. we put it in his hand and the dialog is as follows:

Me: Three seventy eight.
Employee: what the fuck?! (i guess he was pissed her got the change?)
Me: Hey buddy that is valuable money right there. I save my change!
*for some unknown reason, caia is compelled to touch my ass. for the 7th time)
Me: YES, PLEAAASE TOUCH MY BUTT ONE MORE TIME!
i yell this out. nobody gets my sarcasm, and they think the guy was touching my ass.

so good.